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The 39-year-old singer is mother to nine-year-old Egypt and five-year-old Genesis – both of whom she has with her husband Swizz Beatz – but has said she felt “so torn” after discovering she was pregnant with Genesis, as didn’t think she’d be able to cope having a second child.
At the time, Alicia was in the midst of finalising her sixth studio album ‘Here’, whilst Swizz Beatz – whose real name is Kasseem Dean – had his hands full with studying at Harvard Business School.
Writing in her new book ‘More Myself’ – an excerpt of which was shared with People magazine – she said: “I wasn’t ready for this, which is what I told the doctor. [I told the physician] ‘This is the worst time ever. I’m working on my next album. My husband just got into Harvard Business School. And I’ve been drinking – a lot.’ I left her office feeling so torn.
She added: “While I was struggling over my choice, I went into the studio one evening and began listening to ‘More Than We Know,’ a song Swizz and I had written. The lyrics are about how we’re capable of so much more than we can ever imagine. My eyes filled with tears. How could I take away the potential for this beautiful child, this light that could touch others in ways I couldn’t dream of. For me, the song was a powerful message that I should go on with the pregnancy.”
“Recently with Genesis, we were playing with his ‘Dragon Ball Z’ characters. He had them all fighting all the time, so I asked Genesis’s guy if my guy could be his friend. He goes, ‘Why do you need me to be your friend?’ I was like, ‘Look how I look, all scary with talon feet. Everybody gets scared of me when they see me but they don’t really know the inside of me.”